How Does This Work?

My mother thinks invisible people are conducting experiments on her. So why is is she seems to belittle me all the time?

Does hse realize she's putting me down? I have no idea. it's subtle, so I don't know if it's something subconscious where she tries to reaffirm her own strengths or if it's an intentional thing to bash me. I... fuck I don't know much of anything at this point.

Y'know the movies where the parent calls the family, and the little kid answers and they make the parent listen to the blender, or the dog or something stupid over the phone and don't listen to the parent saying they need to talk to the other parent or whatever? My mother did that to me tonight. I was talking to her, and she held the phone up to the radio so I could "hear the french man singing, isn't he good? is that french?" and I was trying to plan out our day tomorrow, so I said I don't know, but I think you should show up at around nine-thirty tomorrow - " then my mother cuts me off and goes "Here, you can hear it much better now." I go "I don't want to hear the radio." but she'd already taken the phone from her ear, nad was now cranking some stupid song through the phone. for about two minutes. then she came back on and sang some of it to me. I couldn't figure out if I wanted to laugh, scream, or just hang up the phone.

I really wish I hadn't had to call her tonight. I would have liked to have had at least one nice evening.

08.03.2007 - 22:16

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